Its been awhile.

Its been awhile since i have visited this blog. It was sad for me that people said they would post and continue the fun and then didn't. So i stopped caring. But i still love the initial idea of the blog (and am putting off studying) so here i am to give an update.

Time is flying past. It is really freaking me out. Unbeknownst to some of you, for the last year i have been considering going on a mission. For the past year, my life and thought process has stopped in March. I have known i would put my papers in, in march. The end. April wasn't a reality. At work we have to turn in our "time off sheet" by the 15th of the month for the following month. I completely forgot to do it because i haven't even considered the fact that April is only two weeks away and it is fast approaching. It is scaring me. I love my life right now and am not ready for it to change. I love my roommates, my ward, my social life, my job, pretty much everything.

My papers still aren't in yet but they should be by April. I am ready to have it taken care of but at the same time i need my world to stop so i can just relax and stop stressing about my future. Its a lot to handle.

Also i am really trying to pull my grades up. I have never really considered it before, but i might want to go to grad school. I don't want my lack of focus and laziness to prevent me from furthering my education. The most frustrating thing about it is that when i do try i get A's and B's and C's and when i don't try i get A's and B's and C's.  I have studied really hard for three tests this past month and i pretty much did just as bad as if i hadn't studied. It is very annoying. I like my classes and for the most part I like my teachers, but i hate their tests. In fact, even writing about it is making me mad so i better move on.

I really love my job. I have good days and bad days but i never dread going to work. i have formed bonds with my residents and look forward to seeing them and helping them. There is always an adventure to have.  Yes, i get poop and piss on me, and clean up throw up and bodily fluids no one would really want to touch. And i get yelled at and cursed at and stress about blood pressures and oxygen levels. But these are real people with real stories and i love them! and i have great co-workers which also helps make it that much more fun and fulfilling. I know that whatever i do in life, it will have to revolve around working with people because there is no way  i could work at a desk or in a store. My job is way more fun.

 Anyway, this is kind of a pish-posh post but it is what is on my mind. Mission= scary, school=ehhh, life= good. Love you all. Post if you feel so inclined.